Tyler left for annual training Saturday. He's in California this year for two weeks (no coming home a week early this year to become a father, darn) and I've been dreading it. Saturday and Sunday I was a wreck. I don't do well with my husband gone and only having limited communication. In fact, I hate it. I knew I would be ok and this would make us stronger and blah-blah, but those first two days are always rough. I HATE to admit this, but I pulled a Bella. All I needed was an empty forest to lay down in and cry. I felt empty, lifeless, depressed, missing, unmotivated..and it didn't help that I was angry with myself that I was feeling that way when I have a daughter to take care of. But it's hard without my best friend.
Today has been a great turn around. I have no idea why, but this distance has done more than make my heart grow fonder, it has rekindled a fire. And I mean like, some heavy amounts of aerosol hairspray, lighter fluid, and a bunch of other combustible things. I have completely fallen in love with my sweet husband all over again in the last 48 hours. I feel like I did four years ago when we first started dating. And it has completely consumed me. I have been floating on air. I laugh when I catch myself grinning ear to ear when I get a text from him. It makes me absolutely giddy.
I have so much in my heart right now, but I will save the rest for when I get to talk to my handsome best friend tonight :) I just love my sweet husband. He has given me so much happiness, and there is no greater feeling than this!
Just a trip down memory lane:
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