Like I mentioned in the last post, I knew I was pregnant (after my miscarriage) right away. I couldn't get off the couch most days from being so tired and I felt like crap. Taking that pregnancy test only made it get worse (maybe it's mental?). Now, don't get me wrong. I have friends who have suffered with such horrible nausea throughout their entire pregnancy that they lose tons of weight, throw up multiple times a day, have to get IV's because they get so dehydrated from being so sick. I am by no means even comparing my sickness to theirs. I can't imagine what they go thru. But..I was expecting this one to be as easy as it was with Hallie. It wasn't. I was sicker than I've ever been for weeks. I never threw up, I've trained my body to stop because I hate it so much. I'd have to lay down on the couch with a wet washcloth on my head and suck on a mint while taking long deep breaths. But I felt horrible. Not only that, but I was already uncomfortable. At 10 weeks I felt like I did when I was 30. I was bloated, my body hurt, and I couldn't sleep because I couldn't get comfortable. My sciatic nerve was also giving me a ton of grief. I couldn't get Hallie in and out of her car seat without crying in pain. And when I asked my dr about it, he told me it was too early to be having back pains so it couldn't be my sciatic nerve. Once again, so happy with my NEW doctor!!
Things finally started evening out around 16 weeks. I still had my bad days, either feeling sick or being in pain, but it was better. I had a little more energy. But it still wasn't that "pregnancy glow" you're supposed to get during your 2nd trimester, and it was nothing like how I was feeling during my first pregnancy. I'm much more emotional this time around, my skin is dry and breaking out. It's all just been fun and games.
Now, at 26 weeks, I am getting back to being uncomfortable. It's getting harder to sleep at night. I have the WORST heart burn EVER! I haven't been able to sleep thru the night since I got pregnant because my bladder won't hold. But now I'm going every 2 hrs like clockwork. Little Raegan has decided its fun to tap dance on my bladder, so I've woken up several times with some close calls. And ohhh the Braxton hicks. I only got them a few times with Hallie until the very end, and even then they weren't painful. I've been getting horrible contractions every time I stand for too long. I can't cook dinner, wash the dishes, go grocery shopping, or do my hair and makeup without having to sit down and drink water in the middle of it. My whole stomach gets super tight and I get a pain that feels like my stomach is gonna rip open.
I'm hoping that all of this is good news. I'm hoping that my Braxton hicks are just my body preparing already so that when the time comes it can kick it into gear and get this baby here fast. Let's hope baby waits till it's time tho :) I have a feeling that labor will be painful this time around. I barely felt anything the whole time with Hallie, but I was in labor for 40 hrs. I'm wondering if a painful but quick labor will be worth it.
I'm also hopeful that a tough pregnancy will mean an easy baby. Which would be the opposite of how it was with Hallie. I am crossing my fingers that all of this will play out in my favor, and that I'll want to be pregnant again in the future when all is said and done.
Please, please, please do not get me wrong. I know it sounds like I'm doing nothing but complaining about all this. But I am extremely thankful. I know it could be so much worse. I am grateful that I actually am pregnant, that I didn't have any problems getting pregnant again after my miscarriage. I'm so grateful that at the end of this I get to hold another sweet baby girl. Please do not think I'm taking this all for granted. I am definitely not. I just want a record of this pregnancy so I can look back on it when I have tried to forget it all :)
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